畢竟是忘憂草,還是忘朋草

畢竟是忘憂草,還是忘朋草?
孤單滋味有誰會了解,
害怕感覺又有誰會知道,
眼前的,耳後的...
優美的歌聲環繞在耳旁,
恐怖的畫面卻映在眼前...

I'd really wished the time roll back into the 90's,the time we met. and start it all over again. The next 2006 would be better.

3b+1a =4ab
4ab-1b=1a2b
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new name?

I sure you're getting curious about it, why i changed it.
First of all, you can call me my old name back if you're my old friend. For those friend i will know them after this blog, they will call me ker xiang. Maybe it sounds stupid, but i really can't stand it anymore longer. Well, heres the explanation '可翔'. 翔 known as flying on the blue sky alone. referring to the problem of the two post below this.


Q:Why i changed the name?

A:Quite easy. First of all, it starts from the problem that is posted below this post. I am all alone, i've lost 10+ best friend of mine. Few of them are my childhood partner, and they left me in the dark. By now, i am a brand new human being. Should get a new name for the future? Someone maybe laughing at me now, planning to 'K' me or whatever things. I don't mind, I just mind that...You peoples are my friend. For-ever.


p/s: Don't take it too serious, cause i am still not sure what am i doing. I'm drunk, by all those stupid problems. I need you guys.

importants

So now, i've learnt something from my life. Theres nothing more precious then Friendships. Never thought that it was so important, even Loves wouldn't cause so much hurting sprees. Everyone in my world, you guys are the best in my opinion. Maybe you guys never ever stand by my side, but my soul will supporting all of you whatever happen. True happiness lies on you, true friend never appear in my life. too bad for me.

All the best buddies!

To: All my dearest friends

Hay there all my friends there, its all about us.
Day by day, i really don't understand what
happened between us. exam problem? friendship? or
. . . . . i don't know. Just here to wishing all
of you having a great time during the bloody 'ASS
PEE AMM'. Remember, no matter what happened among
us. I still treated you as my best best friend i
ever met. good luck ma'an!


From:

KeRYi



this is what i wrote to my buddies that used to played with me since i'm 3. But something unidentified happened among us. I am alienated.

fly with your own wings

26th of October 2006, 10.50pm. From this moment, i know. Forever, i'm on my own. No guides, No advices, No love. Its all a nightmare in my life, tottaly nightmare. tears fall whenever i'm alone, in the dark, cold little room. Seems like living in a small little jail, holding the metal bars yelling for help. But too bad, there is no one helping me all along. Seeing is believing, Feeling is suffering. Little room is my only world, a world that know me the most, care me the most, love me the most. Nothing else can do that much to me, even though they tried. (but they never) Ever feel to killing my own, but i know there is one day. I gonna get myself outta here. I feel love, its warm & comfort, its in my dream & my world. Prisoner can have a family day, but where is mine?

'i have a best daddy/mummy in the whole world'
I heard this in almost every movie, but i knew i have no chance to speak it out through my heart. But i'm sure my kid will do this in the future. They need love, they need understanding.
& the most of all, they need YOU.


from: your son.

pretty far

Well i wonder could it be
when i was dreaming of you
that you're holding me.
its stupid to believing into dreams,
since that day, i hoped dream could be true.
crying since that day
lonely since that day
looking upon the skies,
your face lied on my heart,
hearing your voices,
whispering softly beside my ears.

its black & white all the time,
pretty close we sat, pretty far we aparted.
pretty far.....& its far.

mirror mirror on the wall

Mirror mirror lie to me, tell me that she loves me too.
Mirror mirror lie to me, tell me that shes my only one.
Mirror mirror lie to me, tell me that i'm the chosen one.

I must be stupid to rely on her,
I must be a fool to listen what the mirror said,

Mirror mirror, you took away my heart & my soul.
Give me back what i need & whatever belongs to me.
Dear mirror, please lie.....

just a "Okay"...& it kills

How many times i've trying to tell you what i felt. Too bad cause i just get the same reply for all the time, "Okay". Is this really what you think? I can't even guess what are you thinking, you're just too........complicated or maybe cold blooded. For me, its always okay out of my mouth, but its a ''kay'o'' (KO), in my heart. Its the feeling, which is hunting me down all the time. for the past, i kept telling myself that i'm easily been hooked and hardly to being hunted. Its true, i'm hooked by you & i can't hunt anything but tears. Being in loved is such a pitiful moments, for the past few months i never touched this things until i've met you. But i'm wrong all the time, its a wrong path to choose again. Send me back, to the place i start.... I can't do this by myself, cause i never wanted to go back. I wished to continue, with sad & sorrowness. =S

skip, hop, wee

here i am, skipped my class. well, tell you something is scary or funny. We suppposed to be having our breakfast near the river, too bad i met my uncle and gg. Just hoping i'm alright when i'm back home...xD

rainbow..

Its alright for me, i think its time for me to have a stupid normal life with my bunch of friends like before. Maybe you're right, it won't be happen in my life. The peacock @ number 12 is just a fake story for me (for sure is fake la, only a forward message, lol !). All the time, i was thinking about it, & i thought that it could happen in the future. Ya, it will, but maybe next century? It seems to be a rainbow after the rain, looks so pathetic & a result of the rain drops or it could be my tears. Its all only i can dream for it, & its shows up with a cold/simple smile. =)

kill me

Maybe i'm wrong again, am i? What the hell is going on to this world, everyone seems to be acting so weird. For sure, i know she is not. She is just a little girl that walked into my heart without any footprints, but did she really need some times or just trying to runaway from it. No one knows. Come on, its just a stupid game, i'm used to it. Getting back stabbed? headshot? (for sure not headshot, its one shot kill). Oh ya, maybe this

lovely chick & the stupid fire

I'm here, after DotA of cuz... So damn bored i found some old pic. Its a malay school beside my class caught on fire and a lil' chicky was searching for his birdie.

here, i wished it was my school.lol.
Btw, he found it after the pee. ^^

blinded

well, is this light purple or light blue. For sure i can't judge it cause i'm kinda sensitive in colours. But why still need to scold a person since he can't judge the colour and he did the wrong one. Is that fair to him? I don't think so man.

Recovery

Phew..so close. I accidentally deleted this blog, luckily i found a copy of html file in 'C:\Documents and Settings\KeRYi\Local Settings\Temporary Internet Files'. God damn it, i nearly kill myself because of that..but still, Phew!

never thought that i would do this, i'm wrong maybe.
i never fell into someone for the past few months, and i never thought that i would fell on you.
and all the time, i misunderstood it.God damn it, i told you the truth.
at that time, i was wondering that should i tell you or what. but suddenly i can't control it and i told you that i'm in loved. Who the hell do this to me, this is not in my plan.Maybe god?
Argh..forget it, i'm talking crap.

Buddha's Shadow

Taken in a temple, 2 memories of this photo. Firstly, i'm attending my friend's father's funeral. Walking around and feel this scene was awesome so i took it down. Secondly, it was taken by my stolen phone. Feel sad about these two tragedi. Never thought that it will happend. Friends, appreciate what you have now before you regret it. I learned something today, and i get my precious shot.

......

從來沒發覺到，
至到你將離開ㄍ前一天,我ㄍ心證明了我愛上了你．
未來ㄍ日子，不知道要怎麼過，
沒人會想到這件事，也沒有人會去猜．
以後我會把你牢牢記在心里，
一個，最特別；最愛ㄍ朋友．．
當你寂寞，要記得我在想你，
當你哭泣，要記得我也在為你而流淚，
當你高興，要記得告訴我．
保重．．．

<<迷路>>

海中的一條船,
一條找不到方向的船,
海洋...真的好大,好大...
單獨地我,
只能在船里等待,
只能帶著我對你的思戀四處流浪,
只能等待著白色沙灘的出現,
到底何時再能從見這漂亮的沙子,
沙灘...我,愛你!

8 months

8 months of sadness
8 months of waiting
8 months of loving....
i still continue waiting,
never thought that i'll fell on you
your smile,i never forget that
its so sweet that just like
a box of honey.
whatever it is...just remember that
i never regret for everything i've done to you
my love that given to you is infinity.....

<<思念>>

天上的云,化成了雨
帶著我對妳的思念.灑落在妳的身上
妳是否察覺到那咸中帶點苦澀的
其實,是我的淚水?
妳是否也因為那陣細雨而想念我?
踏上飛機,隨即將赴向另一個遠方
負擔著對妳的思念,感覺到一絲的無助
我知道
離開的不只是一片土地,還有我的軀體
離不開的卻是我的眷戀,我的不舍
在另一端的妳
又是否能夠承受得起這同樣思念的壓力?