Whenever you see a new post updated in this blog, and you'll know the reason why the owner is here again.

I would turn things up and says it's alright if I don't feels anything about it. I would sleep for the resubmission and don't give a damn about it if I don't care about it. I would just turn around and act like I saw nothing if I doesn't feel any pain about it.

But why is everything in the world trying to put a death sentence on me?

And please stop asking me not to feeling down anymore, you guys thought it is fun being down?

I'm alright and suddenly it drag me down to again.

worried.

Assignment time ! Break Time ! Lonely Time !

It's Saturday evening and I'm doing my assignments @ Starbucks @ Bangsar alone. Buddies went to Penang last night and I missed the one night trip ;(

Felt like going with them last night but I can't, due to my college's shit is all around me. I can't go out have the real fun with the heavy tons of cement on my shoulder on. Holidays is around the corner but I felt like nothing. Serious shit, this shit is getting me round and round in my life.

Worked hard like an asshole but the final outcome is always letting me and the lecturers down. I wonder why ? Am I just not into it or I still need to work harder ? 24 hrs per day isn't enough for me, 72 hrs per day perhaps ?

Work list is still on with a low going progress.

Digital Media : 30 % ( Due Friday )

Board Game Design : 70 % ( Due Monday )

Design Method 1 : 75 % ( Due Monday )

Visual Communication : UNKNOWN PROGRESS AND SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP !

I knew I'm weak in these and I'm still trying hard . . .

Back to the blog, with a hard hard feeling.

Life isn't easy as you thought. People who took their own life away isn't as brainless as you thought, they felt the real pain in life which not everybody in this world can feel it. I speaks for those restless soul.

I felt stress, yes I really do. The projects in my college is just way too much for me to handle, I know I'm not like the others. I handle things slow, and I'm trying very hard to change this. I tried very hard and who on earth know about this? They just thought I'm simply too lazy to work on anything in college.

Who heard my sobbing voice in the night, who saw my stressing face in the corner, who felt the pain i feel in my life. Nobody...

It's not easy.