fly with your own wings

26th of October 2006, 10.50pm. From this moment, i know. Forever, i'm on my own. No guides, No advices, No love. Its all a nightmare in my life, tottaly nightmare. tears fall whenever i'm alone, in the dark, cold little room. Seems like living in a small little jail, holding the metal bars yelling for help. But too bad, there is no one helping me all along. Seeing is believing, Feeling is suffering. Little room is my only world, a world that know me the most, care me the most, love me the most. Nothing else can do that much to me, even though they tried. (but they never) Ever feel to killing my own, but i know there is one day. I gonna get myself outta here. I feel love, its warm & comfort, its in my dream & my world. Prisoner can have a family day, but where is mine?

'i have a best daddy/mummy in the whole world'
I heard this in almost every movie, but i knew i have no chance to speak it out through my heart. But i'm sure my kid will do this in the future. They need love, they need understanding.
& the most of all, they need YOU.


from: your son.

pretty far

Well i wonder could it be
when i was dreaming of you
that you're holding me.
its stupid to believing into dreams,
since that day, i hoped dream could be true.
crying since that day
lonely since that day
looking upon the skies,
your face lied on my heart,
hearing your voices,
whispering softly beside my ears.

its black & white all the time,
pretty close we sat, pretty far we aparted.
pretty far.....& its far.

mirror mirror on the wall

Mirror mirror lie to me, tell me that she loves me too.
Mirror mirror lie to me, tell me that shes my only one.
Mirror mirror lie to me, tell me that i'm the chosen one.

I must be stupid to rely on her,
I must be a fool to listen what the mirror said,

Mirror mirror, you took away my heart & my soul.
Give me back what i need & whatever belongs to me.
Dear mirror, please lie.....

just a "Okay"...& it kills

How many times i've trying to tell you what i felt. Too bad cause i just get the same reply for all the time, "Okay". Is this really what you think? I can't even guess what are you thinking, you're just too........complicated or maybe cold blooded. For me, its always okay out of my mouth, but its a ''kay'o'' (KO), in my heart. Its the feeling, which is hunting me down all the time. for the past, i kept telling myself that i'm easily been hooked and hardly to being hunted. Its true, i'm hooked by you & i can't hunt anything but tears. Being in loved is such a pitiful moments, for the past few months i never touched this things until i've met you. But i'm wrong all the time, its a wrong path to choose again. Send me back, to the place i start.... I can't do this by myself, cause i never wanted to go back. I wished to continue, with sad & sorrowness. =S

skip, hop, wee

here i am, skipped my class. well, tell you something is scary or funny. We suppposed to be having our breakfast near the river, too bad i met my uncle and gg. Just hoping i'm alright when i'm back home...xD

rainbow..

Its alright for me, i think its time for me to have a stupid normal life with my bunch of friends like before. Maybe you're right, it won't be happen in my life. The peacock @ number 12 is just a fake story for me (for sure is fake la, only a forward message, lol !). All the time, i was thinking about it, & i thought that it could happen in the future. Ya, it will, but maybe next century? It seems to be a rainbow after the rain, looks so pathetic & a result of the rain drops or it could be my tears. Its all only i can dream for it, & its shows up with a cold/simple smile. =)

kill me

Maybe i'm wrong again, am i? What the hell is going on to this world, everyone seems to be acting so weird. For sure, i know she is not. She is just a little girl that walked into my heart without any footprints, but did she really need some times or just trying to runaway from it. No one knows. Come on, its just a stupid game, i'm used to it. Getting back stabbed? headshot? (for sure not headshot, its one shot kill). Oh ya, maybe this

lovely chick & the stupid fire

I'm here, after DotA of cuz... So damn bored i found some old pic. Its a malay school beside my class caught on fire and a lil' chicky was searching for his birdie.

here, i wished it was my school.lol.
Btw, he found it after the pee. ^^

blinded

well, is this light purple or light blue. For sure i can't judge it cause i'm kinda sensitive in colours. But why still need to scold a person since he can't judge the colour and he did the wrong one. Is that fair to him? I don't think so man.

Recovery

Phew..so close. I accidentally deleted this blog, luckily i found a copy of html file in 'C:\Documents and Settings\KeRYi\Local Settings\Temporary Internet Files'. God damn it, i nearly kill myself because of that..but still, Phew!

never thought that i would do this, i'm wrong maybe.
i never fell into someone for the past few months, and i never thought that i would fell on you.
and all the time, i misunderstood it.God damn it, i told you the truth.
at that time, i was wondering that should i tell you or what. but suddenly i can't control it and i told you that i'm in loved. Who the hell do this to me, this is not in my plan.Maybe god?
Argh..forget it, i'm talking crap.