Silence In Jia's Place

Currently at jia's room while the others are all sleeping, suddenly I felt like it's so comfy right here. The silence and the slow songs of Dar Williams and Josh Groban in youtube.
What's on the mind right now?
Yeah, buddies are leaving to Aussie very soon and I not really afraid of the loneliness but I just don't feels right if they are not around. What I planned now is pull my socks up on my studies and faster finish up everything which is suffering in here.

Relationships and stuff?

Just leave one side and I just wanna put all my attention on what I am doing now. Yes, I woke up at last some friend told me when they knew what am I thinking about.

Financial?

Try my best not to spend so much on alcohol and not to think branded as I will never can afford them? Maybe this could help.

Buddies?

I will always love you guys, tho I hardly spend time with you guys but I still cares, like I always do.
Tagging the loves for this section :-

• Vinkita Chalam (Dj Ssense)
• Josephtiesto
  
• Steven
• Sophie
• Rempit
  
• Ngooooooooooooooooooooi
• Jiahui the JAHAT
• Cindy the DINO 
• Lushan
  
• MOUSI NG
• Vicky Pun
  

I don't know why suddenly I came up with this but I really wanted to start a brand new success 2010.
Back to the silence in jia's room ciao :)

The 4th day.

It's the 4th day I left my homie and back with my family. I know I've been complaining a lot about my mom, but still yeah she's my mom and what can I do about it. Yet I'd promise her to help her in Penang 3 months ago.
Lazy to blog for the past 3 days and now i have time for it, let me start from day 1 as on my birthday :x

DAY 1
I was suppose wake up on 9 a.m and pack my stuffs and start the engine to Ipoh on 11 a.m. But unfortunately I woke up at 12 p.m. 'F' me, washed up and never pack, MacBook back in the bag, Camera back in the bag and 4 tee shirts with hanger at the back seat and off I went. All the way was slow like 100 miles per hour until I met a chick on a highway which was driving alone too o.O. She followed me and I followed her until I reach Ipoh.

Birthday night was, lonely? Me, KerJiah(cousin) and the girlfriend went to the new pub in town called Lush, it looks nice from the outside but sincerely the musics sucks. After 2 jug, we hop to next door 'Zero Hour'. Sounds kinda 'lala' uh huh? But the music was way far better than next door and we had Hoegaarden :)

DAY 2
Woke up early in the 11a.m. and had breakfast. Slacking in the house until 3.30 p.m. went to the new moved graveyard of my grandma and grandpa in 富貴山莊 (Ipoh's branch). Graveyard also have branches nowadays and it costs like 30k for a single place. wondering how much is the landed for the dead, 100k? I never thought about how the place looks like, normal graveyard as you see?
NO, it is like the 5 star hotel for the dead one. Once I stepped in the main room, it's like lobby hotel of the dead, imagine the lighting and the crystals around the wall. I was like wow but too bad no camera is allowed. It's on the mountain so birds are tweeting all the way, PEACEFUL. Tho is a graveyard, you felt like staying there too I swear.

DAY 3
Left Ipoh and off to Penang, nothing to write about. Normal trip and rest at aunty's place in Butterworth and thats all for yesterday.

CURRENT DAY
It's X'mas eve darlings, but I don't think I get to enjoy the party tonight but will be enjoying the traditional SILENT NIGHT. Thanks to my mom, as I mentioned I've been complaining a lot about her.

I'M IN JAIL. GOOD LUCK TO ME I GUESS THAT'S THE ONLY THING TO SAY.
I MISS YOU SSENSE,JOSEPH, SOPHIA & SITOVEN !!!

Happy Birthday (:

It maybe my most boring birthday, but I had fun supper with my brothers just now (:

AND YEAH,
69 Facebook wall posts in 1 hour and  it's still going on !
; 42 SMSs ;
24 Calls


A ZILLION THANKS AND LOADS OF <3

It's 1.30am, and i gonna drives back to Ipoh tomorrow morning alone. So off I go to bed by now.

Thanks again to all of you (:

Sneak Peak : Earliest Birthday Cake & First Birthday Card In My Life.

SNEAK PEAK !

My First Birthday Card

The only piece of x'mas.

Flashing back, how did you spend you x'mas for the past few years.

For me, I never had x'mas present or party. The only photos I had for x'mas was 3 years back in Hong Kong and I guess it was the most happening x'mas for me.

*Not even for this year :(*

*& I want to buy new shirts too :( *

The Most Annoying Character On EARTH

Remember the movie 'UP' in the cinema?

Remember who is the most annoying character in the movie?
Russell?



I swear I would beat him up if I see him in person. But...
CHECK THIS OUT !!!

New Room Position, Bad Color Theme :(

I'm allergic to dust and I've been sneezing non-stop for the past 3 hours while doing the cleaning on everything in the room. Washed the floor, mop the floor, sweep it again and again and wash it again and again. Clean every little thing in the room.
After 4 hours of non-stop cleaning, I proudly show off-ing my room ! ALONE !

The last part is, I've forgotten about cleaning the air-con -.-

Will do it tomorrow :)

Merry Christmas :)

What's new under the roof?

Guess what's new in the house?

UV Light in the kitchen :x
I kinda hate this, the dim light made me dizzy no matter
it's day or night. Eff !

SNOW SNOW SNOW !!!

SNOW SNOW SNOW !!!

Artificial snows decorations for christmas?
Nope, I mentioned that I'm not able to celebrating christmas 09' :(
So i am not gonna make any decorations for it. It's beanie by the way. For something in my room, comfy! See !

& I filled the bean myself and that's why i had these messy photos.
Urgh ._.

Beanie for me and Ssense :) ! 

We've been looking for it for a long time and I found it yesterday somewhere in Curve.

And the last one in my room, a notice board?

But it's too small for me and ssense, gotta get a

bigger one I guess.

COMING SOON MORE AFTER 2009 !

A Busy Thursday.

Busy Thursday With Ikea/Ikano !
I fell asleep at last after the last post I posted last morning and I get to wake up in time, thanks ki :)
3 hours of sleep and rushed to college to pass up the 'Rushed Shit', finals o.O

Got the feedback from lecturer :
"You need to score more than 23 marks in the final or you'll fail, no OTP for you due to the failed attendance of yours."
Jee ! My mood went down down and down again until ki's MSG that she passed her finals with flying colours :)

What's on my mind ?
Tons of shits loaded in my life, trying to solve the first one and thinking ways to solve the second one. Next thing, the third one came and fourth, fifth, . . . . . . . . The worst part is, I will not having my birthday nor my fav day in a year CHRISTMAS! in this 2009.

No Birthday. No Christmas. No Smiley On Face. Bad 2009 :(

 2 Days, 6 hours of Sleep ?

Can someone please tell me why I don't like to close my eyes to sleep when I really need to?
First of all, I've been trying to get some rest when I'm tired but I just couldn't do a thing to help me get asleep while I'm on my bed. Rolling here and there, switch on my MacBook and browsed some stupid websites, or playing games on my iPhone. The main thing is, I just don't feels like sleeping. Urgh -.- !

I'm trying to get some sleep by now for tomorrow's final for the CGPP in the early of the morningggggggggggggggg ; but it's still the same thing happening to me. URGH (again :p)

I was in Vicky's place for her belated birthday party and I'm sorry Kiiii, I promise you for the belated present okay? <3

Off I go & trying to get into the thing I don't like to do most, sleep.

iPhone 3G vs iPhone 3GS?

Darn, I'm sick of iPhone 3G

. New user will think that nah it's ok for me to use iPhone 3G but not 3GS which cost you around almost 3k per unit but 3G is only around 1.8k - 1.5k per unit. They looks the same who knows :p.

As I had the same thinking before, and now regret :x . Yeah, it's cool having an iPhone on your palm and get connected to the internet 24/7 like there's no wire around you, but the performance speed really let me down compared to 3Gs. Few of my friends are using 3Gs and I tried before to feel the differences.

Cydia App -> Loading ...

( 5 - 9 secs ) for 3Gs

( 1 minute or less ) for 3G !

My experiences, when I used Trillian for IM, Twitter, Facebook and other stuff. After effect ->

It slows everything down, includes loading SMS(s), typing using on screen keyboard, quit an app when you press the HOME button. It lags most of the time.

But still, 3G S maybe be a faster device. But the latest badge of new iPhone 3G S is now Jailbreak-proof. It means you can't really jailbreaking your device :x

WOW !

I've been thru so much in life and I never come into this blog of mine since dinosaur age. Fucked up in studies and was planning to QUIT TOA.

Being down and not going to classes for 3 weeks and I knew it, this semester is fucked upside down. The last decision is the most stupid decision I made for what I've done at first.

Decided to stay and continue slowly until I get the fucking paper from TOA.

Thanks to those who are supporting me all the ways while I never go to classes and shits <3

Webpage Layouts

Progress on the webpage design.

Main Page Layout

Description Page Layout

Tutorial Page Layout

M O O D - B O A R D

The ' How to ' Post

on

How to create a

"Floating Paper Airplane"

• Start with a plain piece of A4 paper and fold it in half as in DIG. 1.

• Then fold down a flap as shown in DIG. 2 and repeat the process with a flap on the other side to give you DIG. 3.

DIG. 2

DIG. 3

• Now fold over the overhanging flap to give you DIG. 4.

DIG. 4

• Then turn the plane over and fold the nose of the plane up to give you DIG. 5.

DIG. 5

• Crease again along the middle line and then fold along the dotted lines in DIG. 6. It is important that the folds at the ends of the wing are folded downwards so you get a plane as at the top of the page otherwise the plane flies upside down

DIG. 6

ADOBE PHOTOSHOP

TUTORIALS (URLs)

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- ICONS -

- WEBSITE LAYOUTS -

- TEXTURES & BACKGROUNDS -

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http://agencynet.com/

http://oliverrussell.com/

http://thegoldenblack.com/

http://heroesofnewerth.com/

Whenever you see a new post updated in this blog, and you'll know the reason why the owner is here again.

I would turn things up and says it's alright if I don't feels anything about it. I would sleep for the resubmission and don't give a damn about it if I don't care about it. I would just turn around and act like I saw nothing if I doesn't feel any pain about it.

But why is everything in the world trying to put a death sentence on me?

And please stop asking me not to feeling down anymore, you guys thought it is fun being down?

I'm alright and suddenly it drag me down to again.

worried.

Assignment time ! Break Time ! Lonely Time !

It's Saturday evening and I'm doing my assignments @ Starbucks @ Bangsar alone. Buddies went to Penang last night and I missed the one night trip ;(

Felt like going with them last night but I can't, due to my college's shit is all around me. I can't go out have the real fun with the heavy tons of cement on my shoulder on. Holidays is around the corner but I felt like nothing. Serious shit, this shit is getting me round and round in my life.

Worked hard like an asshole but the final outcome is always letting me and the lecturers down. I wonder why ? Am I just not into it or I still need to work harder ? 24 hrs per day isn't enough for me, 72 hrs per day perhaps ?

Work list is still on with a low going progress.

Digital Media : 30 % ( Due Friday )

Board Game Design : 70 % ( Due Monday )

Design Method 1 : 75 % ( Due Monday )

Visual Communication : UNKNOWN PROGRESS AND SERIOUSLY FUCKED UP !

I knew I'm weak in these and I'm still trying hard . . .

Back to the blog, with a hard hard feeling.

Life isn't easy as you thought. People who took their own life away isn't as brainless as you thought, they felt the real pain in life which not everybody in this world can feel it. I speaks for those restless soul.

I felt stress, yes I really do. The projects in my college is just way too much for me to handle, I know I'm not like the others. I handle things slow, and I'm trying very hard to change this. I tried very hard and who on earth know about this? They just thought I'm simply too lazy to work on anything in college.

Who heard my sobbing voice in the night, who saw my stressing face in the corner, who felt the pain i feel in my life. Nobody...

It's not easy.

Felt like blogging, but I really don't know what to blog about. I only have one sentence in my mind.

" You never appreciate the tears that I'd fall for you, I wipe it all from my face all by myself. Now, I felt like wiping yours, but I don't know which part should I start from. "

COMPLICATED, FUCKED UP, AND THE MOST OF ALL ....

ASSIGNMENTS !

It's

2 MONTHS SHARP

61 days has passed and it's 2 months sharp until today. I still don't get the point, by running away from the facts, stop having any contacts with her, stop stepping into her profile, stop messaging her, stop doing anything which is related to her, but there is one thing i couldn't stop. Loving her, missing her more and more by each day without any news from her.

Wondering how is the life over there ? Wondering how is the life being with him, is she happy ?

How is her family going on with her nowadays ? Questions are around but there is no answer.

Praying hard for your finals every night, wishing you can pass the final easily. Everything is under control in me her, just to tell you that I'm fine if you still cares.

All the best.

DAY 59

It's a sudden peaceful morning and afternoon since I woke up today. Yeah, I still thinking about her since I woke up but the sorrow in my eyes just made me smile. Had Mushroom Soup and Garlic Toast in the morning with orchestra in the background, I was imagining she's right beside me having breakfast with me too and I smiled.

Last night, someone asked me. Did you feel the same hard feeling when the other ex left you? My answers and questions came back. NO and question is WHY? She is just different, so much special for me and I couldn't let it go. SLAP ME AGAIN.

I wanted to greet a BIG THANKS to the one who companied me these few days, it really made my mood gets better.

* it's almost 60, and I'm still waiting *

So, I'm back in my site again. Yeah, days around me is suffering without her. Peoples, I'll still trying to be strong still. Thanks to people who really cares about me when I was totally down few nights back. I was afraid of myself too that night, it was lucky that no one was in the house when I ran AMOK for the 3rd time because of her.

There is once I told her when she was down, no matter how, there's still little stars that is shining in the sky during the darkest night. Thou it's small in your eyes, but the tiny little stars are huge in size, it's just too far away from you.

Just like I do, standing far apart you supporting what are you doing there. Hoping someday you'll discover me the tiny little star which is shining all the time in your life, wanted to be love so much. I'm always up into your nightsky when you needed someone.

Learning how to climb up myself thou I wanted your loving hands to pick me up. It's not impossible cause I'm still believing in it, as what leng leng said. You're not stupid, you just still care everything about her, and yeah yes I do. Listen to the prayer.

DESCRIPTION ADD-ON SOON.

Adobe Flash time. FFFFFFFF

I dared myself to step into your blog, just a simple click away but I couldn't make the click done.

Argh... nevermind. I will try harder next time.

The Un-express-able Pain

Do you ever felt something in your heart, but you can't express it out? How many times, I felt and I told, it's the same. It change nothing in life; keep it here like now, struggling myself inside the blood. Yeah, I miss you, but I can't see you. I .......... don't know what to type and continue anymore. ciao.

At last I'm done with flickr first set and also facebook's album.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/keryi/

A Tired Day ?

Yeah, it is.. 9 a.m in the morning I woke up and drove to college to meet up the group members. Preparing to do something you'll never expect me to, I went to the Orphan's house ! o.O

I'm not really into kids and I was like kids kids, wtf. Until one of them, a 15 years old kid played the piano. HOLY CRRRRRRAP ! He can played really very well, There's a vid of the kid playing and I'll upload it as soon as I got it from FAFA. I'm touched at that moment because of the song he played is my kind of song... something like what you're listening in this blog now. Well, I controlled my tears, lol.

Holding the camera for 5 hours non-stop is kinda tiring, uploading the photos is even tiring I guess, I spent almost 4 hours to upload only 1 photo in my flickr. STREAMYX you Rox !

Opps, trying to set self timer and I thought I'll be fast enough for 3 secs.

Jone Poh, babinya

Jone was trying with my 450

And I took him as the experiment model.

mana Jone?

Lens Spree =.=

Kinda <3>

He wished, and he will.

The favourite artist among them.

Hell no, I only knew these 2 cutie is not orphans. wtf i'm sorry, thier parents came to visit too.

But you're still lovely, be my girl (:

Totti trying to learn basketball.

cac-tus.

The fav.

Uploading more on,

http://www.flickr.com/photos/keryi/

but still thanks to streamyx, still uploadingggggggggg

Day number xx,

I'm being so straight forward in this post, I'm not gonna put it all in my heart, aching me all the time. Read this or stop reading, it's on your own.

I still can't face the fact, that it actually happened so fast. See-ing someone you loved walked away and holding someone's hand beneath the moon is something simply too ridiculous. This is the third time continuously i met this case in my life, I couldn't imagine what's next in this life circle. I actually acted weird nowadays, I can't control my mind. Halfway doing my assignment, I can even simply throw my stuffs. Even my favourite MB, I actually threw it on the floor in the class and I asked myself ; " What happened ? " . Splitting personality is slowly formed in me I guess, I'm trying to get control in me before it getting worst. I made a decision, stop having any contacts with her might help? and I even stop facebooking which I'm doing every single hour in my life. I know it's hard, but I really doing this for myself this time, it's time for me to being selfish. I'm just being too soft hearted since the day I learned ABC. But, it just not shown on my face aight? It's time for me to learn how to be a hard one, change me change me. But still, trying so hard not to think about her is kinda hard for me. this LOVE stuff made me goes round and round.When comes to love, I shall call it :-

L anguage

O f

V ain

E 'nside

I am still wondering, how true those people can be when they fell in love. 10% , 20%, 90% ? Or just none. I couldn't find the exact answer in myself here. So... argh.. fuck it, I'm not gonna get an answer either. I'm so gonna start my assignments now, and tomorrow is the day to go to the orphanage house ! Be prepare for the photos !

p/s : I'm sorry to being so straight, I'm just simply miss you too much ( In case you read this )

One Last Wish

If I had a chance to do whatever I can, I would wish for one last chance, to tell you 'I love you' in front of you for the last time. Sometimes, a lot of things should be just kept in heart maybe. I'd suffer myself than ever letting you to. Changing the past helps nothing. Facing you, I'd nothing to say. God made me this way, just be.

p/s: wished you best of luck in you two (:

Early in the morning, I woke up after 4 hours sleeping and the first thing is, I freaked out from the dream i've dream last night. It's about you again. Peoples around me just kept on asking me to walk away, but I just can't stop thinking. I want the old days back, I've changed alot because of you. I really do... Why just can't you feel it.

爱是断了线的风筝

Wanna know what I did today? o.O it's kinda unbelievable, fly a kite man.

It's been a loooong time since I last fly my kite. If I'm not mistaken, it was back in year 1998 was my last kite i flew. Today ! We went to Klang to find our childhood memories, hahah !
Me, Joseph, Sophia, Moses, Daniel, Siew Yun ! LOL, cannot fly one, cb.

Batman =.=

Moses, x blh naik la sohai !

Eh, budak ni. x blh naik try la next time, jgn la beri style mcm babi blh x?

*How much I wished,
the pain you felt can be fly away like the kite.
Everything I do, I do it for you.*