Happy Birthday

20051221
Yeah!!mah birthday,but...................why am i feeling moody.I'm alone to face my birthday,everyone is busy,not in.Another feeling is,i staring to hate this place 'Kota Bharu,Kelantan'.When can i leave this place,altough its my hometown but i...........Just wanna wish myself happy birthday!!!

If you were mine

If you were mine
I could love you with my life
If you were mine
I'll be there all the time
We'll be so happy just you and me
'Dancin through the night
'Holdin you tight
I will treat you so right with my heart
Will you let me
Open your heart with my love
Will you let me
Show you how to be free
I just want you to be happy
Let me love you dear
Deep in my heart
My love won't you let me in your heart
Won't you tell me if you really 'wanna hide
Won't you tell me if you don't love me
I just want you to be happy
Let me love you dear
Deep in my heart
My love won't you let me in your heart
I've been 'waitin for that someone just like you
I wont let go until you say
Goodbye!

我.....想聽聲你說我愛你

為甚麼...有一條很幸福的路讓我走,可是我卻選著了你.....這不是應為我蠢,而是我對你的愛,已深透我的世界.聽別人中是說：”我不能沒有你,沒有你的生活裡就沒有了呼吸”.可是這對我來說不是一句浪漫的話,而是一句天大的謊言.在我心裡, 只有：”我...可以沒有你,應為我愛你;沒有你的生活里,呼吸是苦苦的,吃了糖果,也會覺得苦苦的.”每晚..我都會想著你的笑,多甜多燦爛.可是從來沒想過,我在你的內心世界裡是多麼渺小或重要.給你的時間,也許對你來說是不夠.這沒關係,也許這是命...我一生中,只有她....竟然萬萬沒想到,她的地位竟然會轉換給你.沒想到我對你會有這麼深的感覺,不知道深麼原因,會把我的心交了給你來決定我的幸福.可是,我不管甚麼力量帶我到這個地方來.....不管甚麼情況下,我還會繼續的生存再這個對我來說是又甜又苦的地方.我相信,有一天....我可以把所有的苦都吞入心裡,剩下甜蜜的...通通都流給你...好久好久每寫信給你了....我現在的心情,我敢肯訂在這世上沒有一個人了解,也沒有一個人要去了解.為了你,我願意失去我所有...我也不願意失去你,可是你真的不想讓我走入你的世界裡..我也沒辦法.我會等.....等到你接受我的那一天.真愛....難找,說一你要珍愛啊..... 老實說,我不明白你的心理在想甚麼.也許你真在想我趕快離開你,或許在想辦法敢我走...每晚,我都很害怕.我害怕我會想我現在一樣.....來了....真的來了.力量好強啊....我擋不住,我.......眼睛流 '血' 了.這幾個月來,我想對你說的話,我都沒告許在我的網上的 '你'.....就在現在,我忍不住了,流血了.才告訴了 '你' ...
暗戀就像吃巧克力,苦苦的,甜甜的....不敢想你,怕會想你;不敢說愛你,怕會更愛你.....其實我真的真的很愛你....

可毅
上

11月26日2005年
1：48AM

falling tears

Please don't tell me not to cry
Please don't say there was a reason why
You don't know what i am feeling
Or how much i hurt
The wet spots are from tears on the collar of this shirt
You think i should go on with life
Forget about it and be strong
But deep down i am sad,and i don't want to go along
i don't expect youto understand why
For no apparent reason and start to cry
My life has changed forever,you see
And that is why i am not acting like the same old me
So please don't try to act like nothing happened
Because it's changed my life forever
I will never be the same again
Not today,not tomorrow,but never
The best thing you can do for me is jst be there
Just like always,my friend
My broken heart is hurting bad
And it will never mend
i love you....

by:: me

no matter what....i'll always be there for you

well.....tonight,i just feel that i'm not gonna forget ya.I did love you like before.Erm...i think there no other human knows bout it,and im not gonna tell it to anyone too.But..............i knew i'm just part of you friend,no other special feeling,special kinda relationship.But i just want you to know,that i still love you like i did before.Yeah...you thought i'd forgotten you,its great that you won't avoid me anymore.I heard your best friend says taht you told him that we are not suit,ma heart broke into pieces gal.....Hope you're just joking around.Staring at you,made ma heart feel so comfort.Just wanna say thanx cuz you made me happy today,altough i can't be urs beloved........ =)

後 悔 す る - R e g r e t

I'm sorry to those stupid things that i've done to you,what i mean is nothing.Actually i've got the feeling with you since the first time we met....When the time you told me you had fallen in love with me,I'm so happy...so so happy.But ma feeing on you just a lil lighter,thats why i treat you sux.Sorry ma fren.But what i've regret is i never told you that until you had put me down,i'm feel that i'm so stupid that i found that you are the type of ma favourite.But...You've gone out from ma world.What can i do to help ma'self?Yes,i do miss you much now but its the feeling that just like a pair of scissors is cutting of ma hear,tearing it.People said:"The cruelest,un-humanities punishment in da world is 'Regret'".And now,i'm suffering the punishment.The feeling is so sux,i can't stand da feeling.I don't wanna hurt,force anyone.I just hoping you'll life happily.take care yourself at there.Altough we met once a week,i'll still keep you in ma mind,as if you're beside me all da time......



-i love you *
-i miss you *

dreaming

I dreamt of you last night altough i slept at 4.We talk together at last,tough its in a dream,i'm happy with it.Cause i know that i wouldn't have a chance to talk to you in the reality,so i have to say a hundred or thousands times "Thanx" to the "Dreaming Devil"..I never mean be so cold that doensn't talk to you when we met,just because i think that you are running away from me.But i hope that is not a right of ma thinking.I really miss you babeh. . . . .MuackxXx

愛上一個不該愛的人是最痛苦的一件醜事. . .

不知道在何時何刻,你偷偷地把我的心掛上了你的背後. . . 就應為你把它掛在你的背後,因此你也因該不會感覺到我對你的意思. . .再你心前的,也許只有他一個.也許,我比不上他.還是我陪不上你．．．．每當我看見你時，心里總會感到又興奮，又心酸的感覺．我在你的心里應該只是一位非常渺小的朋友，一位對你不重要的朋友．但你要知道你對我來說，是一位非常，非常重要的朋友．．少了你，我心裡的就好像少了太陽’月亮’星星.少了你,我的生活會變得很困苦.每一天,當開起手機裡的信箱,終會看到那些令我感到又興奮又
傷感的信息..心好疼,好疼.每晚我都會想像那牽著你的小手我, 多麼的辛福,開心,甜蜜....寫了這麼多,眼淚也忍不住了..心裡想：要是你會開起這網站看看,那又多好....又很多事,不敢告訴你,只好通通都寫在這.希望這又一天,你會看到這些我心裡的話.....愛你我從來沒後悔,也沒想要回頭.只要你的日子過的好我也不會有甚麼憂愁的. . . . .保重我的愛人
可毅
上

The feeling now...

Its 9.48PM,20 August of 2005,Saturday.

You.....are busy again
You.....left me alone writing this blog again
You.....Din't reply ma message again

And You......................................
Hurted me again
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I wish to chat with you now,but you told me you busy again. . . I just send you the picture that you asked me to edit,i hope i can continue the chat room,but ma heart won't allow me to do that,cuz you told me that you hae something to do.As what i've said,i'm really not important in your life,your world,neither your dream.Everynight in ma dream,you appear as an angel that beside me,i hope that the angel won't fly away as if in the cartoon that angel helps humans to solve everything...yeah,you din't fly...You stay by ma side,till early in da morning,you flew when i open ma eyes......Feel like fucked up that i had to back into the reality world that you flew away when you sees me,you walked around by ma side without any greetings as if i'm a lil stranger..I really hope that we could be friends,i mean good friends.....Bunch of words out from ma heart,but it doesn't came out from ma mouth..It came out from ma keyboard and shows to everyone here,i guess you won't see it.But i hope you'll...Heartache....That night,<18/8/2005> i smiled the whole night,with a happie mood...But in a sadness situation,cuz you left me alone in da roof watching the sky and hoping you came up to talk to me,but you never.....You are in the room,with your friends,without asking:'Where is ker yi?"...Its a stupid thinking of me,thinking that you'll ask these stupid question that as if you care of me,you never ma dear friend.....Never ever ask about me.What am i gonna do? Wait? god help me please......I think i gonna throw it aside that can see you live happily,then ma life gonna be better i think.Well hope you are all right with your arms right now.......


From:KeR_Yi

feel you

I'm trying to fly up high,
I fell without my wings,

I fell so small,
I guess i need you baby,
And everytime i see you in my dreams,
I see your face,Its haunting me
I guess i really need you baby.

At night i pray,
That you face will fade away,
But i failed,Its always in my mind,my heart,my soul............

Baby i'm here just to say that i had fallen in love with you,
Hope you'll understand my heart that being attacked by your soul,
Only you is the only way to cure my deep cut on my heart.
Please........Baby please don't let me alone in my life,
Its so hard to being alone everynight,
Without you,I can't do just nothing....Except
Do what you are doing,
breathing at the tasteless air
That what you are doing all the moment.

Baby...I need you~So much deeply from my heart,my soul

Flying Without You

I'm trying to fly up high,
I fell without my wings,

I fell so small,
I guess i need you baby,
And everytime i see you in my dreams,
I see your face,Its haunting me
I guess i really need you baby.

At night i pray,
That you face will fade away,
But i failed,Its always in my mind,my heart,my soul............

Baby i'm here just to say that i had fallen in love with you,
Hope you'll understand my heart that being attacked by your soul,
Only you is the only way to cure my deep cut on my heart.
Please........Baby please don't let me alone in my life,
Its so hard to being alone everynight,
Without you,I can't do just nothing....Except
Do what you are doing,
breathing at the tasteless air
That what you are doing all the moment.

Baby...I need you~So much deeply from my heart,my soul....

對不起～s.o.r.r.y

愛.......................................又煩,又悶.很對不起,我傷害了你.很抱歉,我不能陪你.不好意思,不能滿足你對我的期望.心里只想要對你說,我其實要的不只是你,我要的是關懷.....就是那麼簡單,你也滿足不了我.忍了半年終已還是選擇了放開,也許這樣做會傷害你.但,說為長痛不如短痛就是這樣...我寧願看你現在受苦,也不甘心看著你在後來的日子受苦.我的離去,也許可以讓你心酸..可是我再也沒其他的辦法,我不想！！我不想！！不想做那令人討厭的第三者～在以後的日子,希望你可以好好的跟他在一起.....祝福你啦！！！