The feeling now...

Its 9.48PM,20 August of 2005,Saturday.

You.....are busy again
You.....left me alone writing this blog again
You.....Din't reply ma message again

And You......................................
Hurted me again
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I wish to chat with you now,but you told me you busy again. . . I just send you the picture that you asked me to edit,i hope i can continue the chat room,but ma heart won't allow me to do that,cuz you told me that you hae something to do.As what i've said,i'm really not important in your life,your world,neither your dream.Everynight in ma dream,you appear as an angel that beside me,i hope that the angel won't fly away as if in the cartoon that angel helps humans to solve everything...yeah,you din't fly...You stay by ma side,till early in da morning,you flew when i open ma eyes......Feel like fucked up that i had to back into the reality world that you flew away when you sees me,you walked around by ma side without any greetings as if i'm a lil stranger..I really hope that we could be friends,i mean good friends.....Bunch of words out from ma heart,but it doesn't came out from ma mouth..It came out from ma keyboard and shows to everyone here,i guess you won't see it.But i hope you'll...Heartache....That night,<18/8/2005> i smiled the whole night,with a happie mood...But in a sadness situation,cuz you left me alone in da roof watching the sky and hoping you came up to talk to me,but you never.....You are in the room,with your friends,without asking:'Where is ker yi?"...Its a stupid thinking of me,thinking that you'll ask these stupid question that as if you care of me,you never ma dear friend.....Never ever ask about me.What am i gonna do? Wait? god help me please......I think i gonna throw it aside that can see you live happily,then ma life gonna be better i think.Well hope you are all right with your arms right now.......


From:KeR_Yi