I dared myself to step into your blog, just a simple click away but I couldn't make the click done.

Argh... nevermind. I will try harder next time.

The Un-express-able Pain

Do you ever felt something in your heart, but you can't express it out? How many times, I felt and I told, it's the same. It change nothing in life; keep it here like now, struggling myself inside the blood. Yeah, I miss you, but I can't see you. I .......... don't know what to type and continue anymore. ciao.

At last I'm done with flickr first set and also facebook's album.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/keryi/

A Tired Day ?

Yeah, it is.. 9 a.m in the morning I woke up and drove to college to meet up the group members. Preparing to do something you'll never expect me to, I went to the Orphan's house ! o.O

I'm not really into kids and I was like kids kids, wtf. Until one of them, a 15 years old kid played the piano. HOLY CRRRRRRAP ! He can played really very well, There's a vid of the kid playing and I'll upload it as soon as I got it from FAFA. I'm touched at that moment because of the song he played is my kind of song... something like what you're listening in this blog now. Well, I controlled my tears, lol.

Holding the camera for 5 hours non-stop is kinda tiring, uploading the photos is even tiring I guess, I spent almost 4 hours to upload only 1 photo in my flickr. STREAMYX you Rox !

Opps, trying to set self timer and I thought I'll be fast enough for 3 secs.

Jone Poh, babinya

Jone was trying with my 450

And I took him as the experiment model.

mana Jone?

Lens Spree =.=

Kinda <3>

He wished, and he will.

The favourite artist among them.

Hell no, I only knew these 2 cutie is not orphans. wtf i'm sorry, thier parents came to visit too.

But you're still lovely, be my girl (:

Totti trying to learn basketball.

cac-tus.

The fav.

Uploading more on,

http://www.flickr.com/photos/keryi/

but still thanks to streamyx, still uploadingggggggggg

Day number xx,

I'm being so straight forward in this post, I'm not gonna put it all in my heart, aching me all the time. Read this or stop reading, it's on your own.

I still can't face the fact, that it actually happened so fast. See-ing someone you loved walked away and holding someone's hand beneath the moon is something simply too ridiculous. This is the third time continuously i met this case in my life, I couldn't imagine what's next in this life circle. I actually acted weird nowadays, I can't control my mind. Halfway doing my assignment, I can even simply throw my stuffs. Even my favourite MB, I actually threw it on the floor in the class and I asked myself ; " What happened ? " . Splitting personality is slowly formed in me I guess, I'm trying to get control in me before it getting worst. I made a decision, stop having any contacts with her might help? and I even stop facebooking which I'm doing every single hour in my life. I know it's hard, but I really doing this for myself this time, it's time for me to being selfish. I'm just being too soft hearted since the day I learned ABC. But, it just not shown on my face aight? It's time for me to learn how to be a hard one, change me change me. But still, trying so hard not to think about her is kinda hard for me. this LOVE stuff made me goes round and round.When comes to love, I shall call it :-

L anguage

O f

V ain

E 'nside

I am still wondering, how true those people can be when they fell in love. 10% , 20%, 90% ? Or just none. I couldn't find the exact answer in myself here. So... argh.. fuck it, I'm not gonna get an answer either. I'm so gonna start my assignments now, and tomorrow is the day to go to the orphanage house ! Be prepare for the photos !

p/s : I'm sorry to being so straight, I'm just simply miss you too much ( In case you read this )

One Last Wish

If I had a chance to do whatever I can, I would wish for one last chance, to tell you 'I love you' in front of you for the last time. Sometimes, a lot of things should be just kept in heart maybe. I'd suffer myself than ever letting you to. Changing the past helps nothing. Facing you, I'd nothing to say. God made me this way, just be.

p/s: wished you best of luck in you two (:

Early in the morning, I woke up after 4 hours sleeping and the first thing is, I freaked out from the dream i've dream last night. It's about you again. Peoples around me just kept on asking me to walk away, but I just can't stop thinking. I want the old days back, I've changed alot because of you. I really do... Why just can't you feel it.