Felt like blogging, but I really don't know what to blog about. I only have one sentence in my mind.

" You never appreciate the tears that I'd fall for you, I wipe it all from my face all by myself. Now, I felt like wiping yours, but I don't know which part should I start from. "

COMPLICATED, FUCKED UP, AND THE MOST OF ALL ....

ASSIGNMENTS !

It's

2 MONTHS SHARP

61 days has passed and it's 2 months sharp until today. I still don't get the point, by running away from the facts, stop having any contacts with her, stop stepping into her profile, stop messaging her, stop doing anything which is related to her, but there is one thing i couldn't stop. Loving her, missing her more and more by each day without any news from her.

Wondering how is the life over there ? Wondering how is the life being with him, is she happy ?

How is her family going on with her nowadays ? Questions are around but there is no answer.

Praying hard for your finals every night, wishing you can pass the final easily. Everything is under control in me her, just to tell you that I'm fine if you still cares.

All the best.

DAY 59

It's a sudden peaceful morning and afternoon since I woke up today. Yeah, I still thinking about her since I woke up but the sorrow in my eyes just made me smile. Had Mushroom Soup and Garlic Toast in the morning with orchestra in the background, I was imagining she's right beside me having breakfast with me too and I smiled.

Last night, someone asked me. Did you feel the same hard feeling when the other ex left you? My answers and questions came back. NO and question is WHY? She is just different, so much special for me and I couldn't let it go. SLAP ME AGAIN.

I wanted to greet a BIG THANKS to the one who companied me these few days, it really made my mood gets better.

* it's almost 60, and I'm still waiting *

So, I'm back in my site again. Yeah, days around me is suffering without her. Peoples, I'll still trying to be strong still. Thanks to people who really cares about me when I was totally down few nights back. I was afraid of myself too that night, it was lucky that no one was in the house when I ran AMOK for the 3rd time because of her.

There is once I told her when she was down, no matter how, there's still little stars that is shining in the sky during the darkest night. Thou it's small in your eyes, but the tiny little stars are huge in size, it's just too far away from you.

Just like I do, standing far apart you supporting what are you doing there. Hoping someday you'll discover me the tiny little star which is shining all the time in your life, wanted to be love so much. I'm always up into your nightsky when you needed someone.

Learning how to climb up myself thou I wanted your loving hands to pick me up. It's not impossible cause I'm still believing in it, as what leng leng said. You're not stupid, you just still care everything about her, and yeah yes I do. Listen to the prayer.

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