It's been a long long time since my last update, and now I'm here with the sound of

SIGH(s)

A Big BIG BIG sigh for me...
Damn ! I'm now totally lost my way in my life, I felt like I'm nothing at all to live in this world. First of all, I can't catch up my studies while (they) used to be my classmate and they are now ..... ( I don't know how many semester(s) I'm slower than them) .

One sentence I've made today in the class which I told Patrick " It's not that I'm lazy to draw, It's not I don't wanna draw; FUCK ! I'd no idea how and how to draw ! "
Yeah, I know I'm not good and I should put more effort on it, but I'd try and It's really hard for me to catch up.

I felt like stop studying, but I don't know what should I do if i really stop it. I can't find the answer in myself for this question. Well, I don't know who should I talked to when I'm really stressed. At last I called my mum and talked to her.

Actual Mood : Fucked Up / Stressed Up / Feels like shit.
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