Peter Pan lives at http://keryi

Does Peter Pan really exist before?
I wish I could get something special from him, forever young.

Things getting harder and harder since 31st of December 2009. Tiny little problem is about relationship at the starting of the year, and I get over it at last and for me it's not really that important anymore. Ever since I had this thought in my mind, I thought I'm one step in front of maturity of a man, who only thinks about his future and plan for it in his life. So, I got my plan planned and it's hand written down in my notebook step by step moving forward to success in life.

It's good to have your own plan written down step by step for you to follow what is the next step to move forward, but now I realized. Luck is also needed in part of the plan, and I'm lack of it ever since it started. Things aren't getting loosen up but it went tighten in life, worst part is about the studies. I decided to stay from the last semester when I was thinking to transfer to other university. I thought, I'll make things better if I put effort on it. It's the same thing again, lack of luck. Due to some reason, I really can't concentrate on my work and I really don't like hand drawn subject especially VISUAL COMMUNICATION. I tried very hard to love them, to concentrate on DRAW, to being tolerate to college's rules that you have to learn that although it's none of Multimedia Design student's business. But i just can't, staring at the paper and start drawing. Ended up i wasted half stacks of layout pad half drawn in the rubbish bin. I really hope someone could understand the situation that I really wish to draw well but I just couldn't start drawing with my own brain. Practices it almost every time I'm free in my room, but still I can only draw with references. I can do better than that when it comes to digitally work on my computer. Drawing is not what I chose at first as if I never mention it before.

Mood is getting weird after CNY too and I'm wondering why. Temper is bad compare to the Keryi I used to be which i don't have any freaking temper AT ALL. I know I'm acting quite weird in front of my friends these few days after I came back from hometown. Trying hard to cure this too by playing pool which I can put 95% of my concentration on the table and put all other stuffs aside.

Being lonely but I'm afraid to love anymore (Anxiety ) / Financial / Family are also part of my main problem.

Don't be so down after reading my post, lastly I want to make a joke to make you (The Readers) smile after reading my post but not down down and down. I am going to make a ranking of my problems to let me and also you know which problem of mine that I am worrying the most and also the joking solutions!

1. Studies. Solution: Stop studying and sell wantan in UK, ssense's quote. 
2. Family. Solution: Seriously I don't want to joke about it :x
3. Financial. Solution: Sell off all my stuffs and be someone that can eat and play anything I want, but no gadgets all, included the phone and not blogging anymore!
4. Being lonely but AFRAID to fall?   Solution: Join Fear Factor ! 

Off, to VISUAL COMMUNICATION CLASS !